update on my life

Hey , guys soooo sorry I've been gone about another year just haven't felt in the mood to blog about things so here's somethings about my life so far..............................................................................
For starts I'm now 18 yrs old an I'm dating an 21yr old guy who I love with all my heart and soul but sometimes I sit there asking myself if I'm ready to start dating again after my 4th an 5th ex-boyfriends hurt an broke me soooo badly I wanted to kill myself but I'm still alive. I ask myself If I'm pretty when I feel ugly .Am I skinny enough tho I don't eat much anymore. How are my scars beautiful to him when their a reminder to me of how much of a fuck-up I am to this world. How can a smile or a laugh make someones day better when their on the edge of breaking. How can a simple photo turn into something wrong. I keep asking myself these questions but I can never find the answer I just go very quiet with thinking very hard it scares people when I don't talk sometime they forget I'm even there. I'm sorry I have anxiety attacks an depression . I know very well I'm a fuck-up an a waste of space on this earth. Why does he put up with me most people just dump me after they meet my family or get to know all my problems an my self-harming problem.............someone answer my questions for me.

news

hey guys it's lexik here and i just wanted to say sorry i've haven't updated in almost a year  i've been having problems with family and ex-boyfriends things

6/4/13 UPDATE

today is three months that me and my boyfriend schylar have been dating, but he had to foget about how special today is to me , now i'm so depressed my suicidal thoughts are becoming stronger and uncontrolable. i'm trying my fucking hardest not to attempt any kind of suicide while my oldest sister is at my house with my one year old niece is here too, but when my boyfriend brings up me not taking my happy pill makes me so fucking pissed off i could punch my fucking walls til my hand is broken. i would cut my thighs some but i've been clean for one month and i'm not going to stop being clean . well i guess this is all that's really on my mind so far at the moment. beside wanting to scream my fucking head til my parents sent me back to the mental hospital once they find out about my suicidal thoughts are becoming stronger everyday now.


signed , Alexis

BREAKING NEWS

i'm finally coming out clean now i'm bisexual and my boyfriend schylar hates it but i'm too god damn proud of being bisexaul and i'm not going to change for my boyfriend or anyone . i spend two days fighting with my boyfriend cuz im bisexaul.it was the first time i ready made him really mad

need more anime role players on facebook mainly hetalians

https://www.facebook.com/cheshire.cat.12177 = my role play account on facebok

i'm female germany

Sorry everyone I've been gone for three months

sorry i was blocked from my blogs for three months til now but i'm going to try to update my blogs now that i have time but still have stuff with high school and everything and the fact that i was freaking out today right i just need sometime to get back in the blogging mode . Plus i'm blonde again with a little bit of blue in my hair

i'm back again

I'M BACK but maybe only for a little while