I'm not dead yet

Hey guys sorry I havent updated in like two weeks I've been emotional unstable to blog an plus I'm getting ready to leave for Virginia in 20days to spend time with my fiance an twin sister and go to my favorite anime convention animemidatlantic

Heart Broken

My Fiance had came up to Marinette for my 19th birthday back on the 14th of may an just left today the 18th of may and I sat at  Austin Straubel Airport crying my eyes out for an hour waiting for my mother to pick me up. I NEVER knew it would hurt this much just to say goodbye for a little while but I  just wasn't ready to let him go again ... I kept telling him how much I hated him to hide how upset I was that he had to leave me as i was just starting to come out of my shell for him to leave me... I know I might get to go down south this summer to spend a month with him and my close friends..............I STILL HURT THO

Pissed off

I will have to make a better post later but for now all i have to say is I HATE PREPS IN MY NEW HIGH SCHOOL

prom

My Prom is tomorrow night an i know very well my self-esteem is going to be very very very very low

Life

My Anxiety is high , I can't be around huge crowds of people even family . I start to panic an freak out very easily ... so i'm hiding in the stairwell of the third floor in my house.. till my family leaves then i'll come out hiding to my bedroom for the night till tomorrow for my niece's birthday then I'll have to deal with my father's mother till she leaves on monday i hope to god ... i cant take much of my family

my laptop is fixed!!!

i'm back guys!!

i'm not dead

hey guys i'm not dead ... i'm still waiting to get my laptop fixed cuz I just moved to a small ass town in Wisconsin sooo i'm constantly freezing my ass off unlike back in VA it was somewhat warmer